Rurouni Kenshin Fanfic
Rurouni Kenshin & Samurai X Original
Japanese Version ©N. Watsuki/Shueisha * Fuji-TV * SME Visual Works Inc. * Sony
Pictures Entertainment
All Fanfics created by Chiruken (me) were written for the sole
purpose of shared entertainment and not intended for publication or sale.
By: Chiruken
Night…Oh how I
dreaded the nights and the stifling quiet solitude they would bring. Long hours of silence and darkness, alone
with only my thoughts, memories and nightmares for company.
Thoughts of such poignant loneliness
I’d find myself quietly weeping in the darkness huddled under my blanket at
times. Then on other occasions, when my
weakness wasn’t nearly so strong, I would whisper hushed conversations to my
shadow cast by the moonlight. Was this
madness? No, it was only incredibly
vast amounts of loneliness without a soul to relieve it with friendly
companionship.
The thoughts would trigger memories
that threatened to shatter my heart with grief and increased my loneliness
ten-fold. Memories of a time when I
wasn’t so alone, of when I’d greet the night, if not exactly with a smile,
without the tears of one who’s soul feels adrift in the sea of stars overhead.
After the memories, when sleep
finally claimed me, the nightmares would arise, leaving me weak and trembling,
a cry of despair being torn from me.
Only there was no one to hear and offer comfort, no one to soothe away
my fears, or wipe away my tears.
Repeatedly I would awaken, reaching out with desperate arms, but there
was no one there to reach out to.
These were my nights and I hated
them and myself…for my weakness, for my inability to overcome my nightly
terrors and for my inability to let go of the past sufficiently that my
self-loathing would be unnecessary. It
was a vicious cycle of thoughts leading to memories leading to nightmares,
which lead me to thinking once again. I
couldn’t break free of my own self-imposed tormented hell brought on by the
night and my loneliness.
And then I met you. You changed that, created a sanctuary for my
lost and battered soul, relieved the loneliness and offered comfort with your
presence. I can face the night now
because I’m no longer alone. I can
close my eyes, readying for sleep and I can rest easy, knowing you are
near. For that I will always be
thankful to you.
For being your kind, gently and
loyal self, always so giving and supportive with quiet courage and
determination, I will always love you.
We are one and the same, you and I,
though our gender creates the difference.
You can soothe my fears because you understand them so well. Like myself, you had every reason to dread
the night. No, we aren’t that different
at all, despite what you may say or others may think.
We are very much alike and I’m
certain you’d agree if you only knew what I’m thinking about as I watch you sit
sipping tea. Perhaps someday I’ll find
the courage to share my thoughts with you.
Until then I’ll hold my peace and enjoy your company, because now I’m no
longer alone. I have you…Kenshin.
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**Owari**
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Definitions:
Owari: end
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Author’s Notes:
1.**gack** Kinda
angsty! Definitely not my usual style
anymore---but again, this is one of my earlier attempts at Fanfiction and First
Person Present POV.
2.Short! Sorry! Hope you liked it! (Please be kind, ‘k?)